Boy was this weeks ChakrArt lesson a doozee!
We are dealing with and healing our 4th Chakra Anahata, or Heart chakra.
This is the one that covers compassion and forgiveness....
I know I have "hardened my heart" over the past few years to "the world", by which I mean I am totally disillusioned by society in general.
I have also learned to "steel myself" against the actions of others, which makes forgiveness almost irrelevant to me. Some things to me are just unforgivable. I am not talking about everyday pettiness or accidental insult and injury...I'm talking the loss of an unborn child through another's deliberate actions....being prevented from doing what you know is right because "so and so" will throw a tantrum...
and it absolutely infuriates me, when someone "forgives me for my inability to forgive them their trespass against me"
So I carry the bad karma associated with the inability to forgive...and I am glad to do so.
I have always lived my life with the deliberate intention to "do no harm", but as I've gotten older I have become even more the "protector"..making my heart heavy, but I am not angry at myself, I am proud of my strength. When I feel compassion for someone or something it is the most profound feeling of love...not watered down to sprinkle where it is not deserved
(the flowers on this hat were the only pink things I could find lol)
Yes I sound arrogant...yes I may appear to be conceited or "holier than thou", and I will set myself up as judge and jury(and executioner if society allowed)...
Because at the end of the day, I am the one who has to live with my decisions. My journalling reads;
" It is not a lack of compassion that stops me from forgiving...but an overwhelming sense of duty to stop you being so cruel to others..."
Ranting aside, I hope you enjoyed my post :D XXX