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Tuesday, 26 March 2013

Brace yourselves....

Boy was this weeks ChakrArt lesson a doozee!
We are dealing with and healing  our 4th Chakra Anahata, or Heart chakra.
This is the one that covers compassion and forgiveness....
I know I have "hardened my heart" over the past few years to "the world", by which I mean I am totally disillusioned by society in general.
I have also learned to "steel myself" against the actions of others, which makes forgiveness almost irrelevant to me. Some things to me are just unforgivable. I am not talking about everyday pettiness or accidental insult and injury...I'm talking the loss of an unborn child through another's deliberate actions....being prevented from doing what you know is right because "so and so" will throw a tantrum...
and it absolutely infuriates me, when someone "forgives me for my inability to forgive them their trespass against me"
So I carry the bad karma associated with the inability to forgive...and I am glad to do so.
I have always lived my life with the deliberate intention to "do no harm", but as I've gotten older I have become even more the "protector"..making my heart heavy, but I am not angry at myself, I am proud of my strength. When I feel compassion for someone or something it is the most profound feeling of love...not watered down to sprinkle where it is not deserved  
(the flowers on this hat were the only pink things I could find lol)

Yes I sound arrogant...yes I may appear to be conceited  or "holier than thou", and I will  set myself up as judge and jury(and executioner if society allowed)...
Because at the end of the day, I am the one who has to live with my decisions. My journalling reads;

" It is not a lack of compassion that stops me from forgiving...but an overwhelming sense of duty to stop you being so cruel to others..."

Ranting aside, I hope you enjoyed my post :D XXX
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7 comments:

  1. We all have to live with what we think is right. You are doing just that and I commend you. We all have a different approach to life. What would this world be if we did not. I have given it all up to this statement. 'I cannot control the doings of others. The only think upon this earth I have any control over is myself." That pretty much covers it for me. Oh, believe me, I wasn't always like that ... I was a controller. Learning to let go, for me, has completely taken the pressure off. And ... I loved your post Gina. So straight forward and honest. That's what I love about you. hugs, Donna

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  2. A wonderful post, a fantastic page and a great photo :)

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  3. I did enjoy your post Gina and can hear and feel what you are saying. I also loved looking at your piece of art too.
    Hope all is well with you.
    hugs {brenda} x0x

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  4. I'm fine thanks Brenda...just the full moon building up :D

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  5. Oh Gina, that is such a strong an definitive post to write and it's good to see you stick with you convictions and beliefs, I've yet to even read the post, it's been a hard week, sending the biggest cyber hugs!

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  6. Gina, this is very powerful! Straight to the point and very honest! I love the picture of you and I love your drawing! Keep being you!

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  7. Wait, what? You've had someone forgive you for your inability to forgive them their trespass against YOU? Well how jolly nice of them. (And that is me seething just at the thought of their arrogance.)

    I can see where you are coming from with this post. I used to believe everyone deserved a chance. Then I got treated like crap. My family got treated like crap. My daughter got treated like crap. And that awoke the monster. Treat me like it - more fool me, treat those I love like it? Hell no. It scares me to think my children could be as trusting as I once was but at the same time I want them to retain a little innocence... not grow up to quick, it's a fine line isn't it :(

    My daughter calls me cynical now - we are what the World has made us I think.

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